Tuesday, February 18, 2014

getting it off my shoulders...

For those who didn't know Trevor purposed to me on June 17th 2013 in Las Vegas (no we did not get eloped) It's now February 2014, our wedding and party plans are starting to come together nicely. We are both getting so excited and getting ready for our big day! Okay more like my big day haha just kidding babe! We're making things happen by keeping busy and making sure were all doing what we need to be doing to get things done.
I'm going to have my loving son walk me down the isle it's so exciting to think that by the time Trevor and I get marred TJ will almost be a 1 year old. 

We love our growing family, and talk about Zadkiel with friends and family. We have no shame in talking about our child whose up in heaven looking down on us.
One thing that Trevor and I have been working on is getting the negativity out of our lives. Unfortunately, there were some family members who we had to leave behind. A lot of people who don't know the details really don't understand why and tell us repeatedly that life is to short to stop talking to family. Which I understand, however this had been something on my mind for years.
 They wouldn't listen to what I had so say, they would talk over me and wouldn't let me utter a word, literally. They were in such denial about past events that had severely altered my life, they had called me a liar and tried twisting my words to make things "make sense" in their minds. I had attempted to explain myself for years, every time they pretend like it's the first time they've heard it. They try getting the family together to work on it, however the way they go about it is causing people more harm than good. I am trying to rid myself of unnecessary drama for the sake of my own sanity and for the good of my family.
My heart hurts to say that I had to carve those people out of my life, but when you try for as long as I have what else can you do to get them to listen? They might even be reading this right now, and they know who they are and what they've done no matter how many times they try to ignore the facts.
On a happier note.
TJ had a beautiful first Christmas, a wonderful sleepy New Years, and a lovely Valentines Day with Grandma while mama and papa went out on a date. We're very thankful to all of our friends and family (whether chosen or not) who have supported us through thick and thin and have helped us in just so many ways whether its a ear to listen to a place to live.

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